What? Just because I don’t like them doesn’t mean I don’t feel for them..
I need to get out of the city for a while..
and live on a farm..
near a brook..
or on a beach..
and make margaritas for a living..
and have beach bums for friends…
but there are bills
tomorrow is another day..
There are times in life when we need a do-over ..or rather we are forced to have one..
Dreams are shattered..
Plans don’t work out..
Priorities need adjustments..
or a complete change in life expectations needs to be made
and we are left with..what now?
These are hard times and there is no one or nothing to blame except circumstances. While going through one of these, I made a promise to myself sometime ago..
At that point I was so devastated that I did not think I could keep that promise for years to come..
but I did..
and more than anything.. it was a lesson in self discovery..
that we are far more stronger and resilient than we give ourselves credit with..
that we aren’t easily defeated..
I did go to Venice..
without my guy.. which was what I had dreamt about as a starry eyed 16 year old..
but kids don’t know everything … :)
I have had such a horrible horrible week that I need a little daydreaming..
like retiring and setting up a quaint little bookstore with cozy lounge chairs and a coffee bar..
in a sleepy coastal village..
overlooking the beach ..
will full length glass windows..
plus i have not had a chance to leave the apartment to take pictures.. so here is the current bunch of books on my night stand. All of them being read as per the mood..
the running favorite.. Les Miserables.. by Victor Hugo..cannot beat the classics..
Do you have favorite book recommendations for me?
One day I hope to..
wake up in the morning before the sun blinds my room..
and smile… just because..
have a huge library overlooking the valley with tall glass windows and a sinky, soft couch..
adopt a little girl and be her family..
finally fly to Venice and take that ride in the gondola into the sunset… no matter if I have someone to go with
..and hear the gondolier sing hauntingly in his baritone voice filling the balmy evening air..
learn to fly ..
bake a cake without the fire alarm soundtrack..
regain my sense of wonder at the world and lose the cynicism that age brings..
get rid of the feeling that anywhere else is better than here..
find the magic..
live in the Himalayas for a year ..
find someone to love and pamper..
start playing the violin again..
actually do some work during the work day.